So today I got the most heart breaking news of my life. I spoke with my father on the phone tonight (mind you he’s 6 states away) that he has 6 months to year left to live. I was out with a group of friends for a friends birthday & balled my eyes out when I heard the news. Went home & cried some more. Now it’s time to bust my ass to come up with money to get a plane ticket to fly out & see him soon. I promised him I’d see him soon enough. I know my work will understand because they’ve gone through the same situation but at the same time I can’t afford it at all. I’ve went to Florida from Michigan twice in the past 4 months. It’s so hard to deal with all of this. I’m hoping tomorrow is a better day. I hope & pray my parents are more positive tomorrow then today when i speak with them. I’m stressed to the max. I hardly want to eat & that’s so unlike me. =( I just keep telling him tomorrow will be different but he always says the same thing. “I’ve worked all my life, why does this have to happen to me.” I’ve known so many people in my life that have lost family members to cancer but I’ve never imagined being in their shoes. I’m speechless & have nothing more to say.
I’d sleep, eat & fuck in these bad boys.
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